I was recently diagnosed with SCD. Since I'm a 'gifted' adult female, I realize that I fit all the categories that increase coping skills and make diagnosis more difficult (not to mention the psychologists involved specialize in children).
It is nonetheless frustrating to me that I feel I relate to most of the aspects of Asperger's and no one else can see it...and even more frustratingly, I can't explain it. I try to give more information, but then they say it's too much. I want to help, but I don't know what's relevant. I don't feel they ask the right questions (or questions I know how to respond to), and they don't wait for me to get the whole answer out. Only realizing this is a problem now, I've also accepted a lot of 'typical' labels and explanations for my behavior and emotions over the course of my life that, I realize now, aren't quite right.
I also have a compulsion to 'get it right' and the whole category of SCD just seems ill-founded to me (i.e. If it's a spectrum, why distinguish two disorders? If it's not a spectrum, what distinguishes two patterns when they share the same symptoms? I know the 'ritual and repetitive' part is supposed to not be SCD, but they said although I met ASD cutoff for that, it is through 'giftedness' because related to my interest, not autism...they also said my rocking is probably a "nervous habit," not stimming, etc.).
Should I just drop the issue? How?
Lindsey
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